Sunday, November 27, 2011

November’s mumbles

I’m officially OFF housemanship duty on 5th nov 2011
~leaping in joy, my ?1st raya with family after start working ~

Starting life as an MO on my 27yr1d of life hihihi
Then being on tv (so unfair the other MO were not there pakat lari (so effectively doing so I cannot find ‘em ) huhu so I HAVE to be there, loool..)

And now it’s 26th nov already and I’ve here in qber for nearly 3wks

Starting my call as early as my 3rd day of life- delivering a breech baby during my first call was quite an experience hoho..(alhamdulillah both of ‘em- mommy& baby were okei)
Then doing the calls till now- today I’ m already post 7th call of the month.
Another one call left, yeay

And still berulang daily nearly 40km-40km to and from, meredah hujan it’s rainy season plus the road is too bad huhu..yet I’m so takot to stay and sleep over there the quarter is too big and feels so so empty haha. (dunno since when I’m so penakot haha..)

It’s school holiday time
Musim bersunat huhu.. hari2 oncall ade saje budak2 bleeding circumcision datang haha.
I never did circumcision myself but stitching a bleeding circumcision is a bit more scary to ‘em it’s like doing it twice- as one of them said. 1st time already kecut perut, 2nd time ape lagi walaupon only need one single stitch.

Like one adik,
He said, buleh buat karangan pengalaman bersunat paling mengerikan. Sabau jew laa adik2 aku nih. He was right, though. Sunat kat melaka, just unclamp the thing a day before then traveling home for cuti skolah. Then bleeding r pulak on the way. Singgah due tige clinic try compress tp bleeding still oozing until see me and nangis2 suh I compress lagi taknak stitch. Then I confide him – one stich and this will stop, okay.. Like org tue2 said—SERUN WEI.. after giving some local then dushh I just tipu die (tipu sunat dap pe kan haha) time stich tu I xgtau die pom.
Dr, Dr wat apew geli r
I gelak jew..
Dr. jahit ar .
Ape dah siap ke Dr?
I just angguk kepala
After stiching, die siap gelak2 agi sambil kua air mate , he said kalu tau geli xsakit gni xyah nangis xpew.. hahaha very funny

2nd , school holiday meaning my adik beradik is coming home. Wish to be there, too but xdep cuti ler pulak huhu..myb nx weekend or the other nx nx weekend.. wait n see if my cuti dapat ke dop

I think, Qber is not that bad.
It’s full of nice people there

Hoping for the best!
Terus melangkah ye!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Pseudo east coast road trip- the kuantan journey

Pseudo east coast road trip- the kuantan journey
18-20th November 2011

This thing, was actually not so well planned. I’ve just move out to Hospital Hulu Terengganu and there- as a rockie they just reassigned names for the courses of the months, all there- my name happened to popped up at some course to attend in kuantan, lol.

There are few facts
1. only me to go? Huhu.. the 1st thing I did asked was- anybody else? And atthat moment, the answer was really so disappointing
2. I’ve never been there. Or be it clearer this way- no land is within my familiarity . I’ve been nowhere except home, myworkplace and the land in between them haha..soo pathetic.
3. my wish list of the year- includes an east coast road trip is not yet comes to reality. This was originally my intention to see it myself the beauty of terengganu beaches that stretch all along the eastern part of the country

T’was my first thought. Then I just accepted it. Argue and I will get nothing but being angry (which I doonntt like at all) so here I am, indulge myself in what I call- the pseudo east coast road trip (in which in conclusion is a bit different from my so called wish of the year)

Being off duty on 17th, I lazed off with some map readings and hotel booking. Honestly I’m bit hyper. Doing things for the first time, haha.. makes adrenaline rushes faster in my veins. It reminds me back on my ITALIAN JOB 2009 I was hyper nearly one week before starting off to Rome and start venturing with Sarah. The thing is, this is not the same. Feeling so unfamiliar with a land which is w.i.t.h.i.n my home country sweet Malaysia is so funny I cannot handle it haha.. at last it happened that I was talking to Subbha and he offers to teman me there from kemaman onward. Then only I was able to sleep soundly haha..(thanks to him )

Starting off at 8925km, Friday noon.

memulakan perjalanan ini dengan namMu ya Allah
setiap langkahku pintaku diberkati

The traffic was initially clogged with org2 g smayang jumaat. I went for early lunch, went to internet cafĂ©, get some air &jajans this and that then it goes smoother than I thought. The road is very comel and you can actually just go forward, of course la sometimes there’s short run of kwsn pembinaan bla2 but not that bad like those to-fro kt- kberang very2 bad huhu..

you know, the only things that comes to my mind was- OMG, this country is a real treasure I’ve missed it all haha.. I never know the beaches are so enchanting I can’t keep my eyes away, Subhanallah!’s so funny I’ve here in trg for quite a time and there’s only few times – can really count it how many times I’ve time to at least give a glance to these treasures. The most I’ve reached before was the Kelulut Beach. No further.

Then Kerteh. there OMG I thought this country has it all. From nature to resources, it has it all. No wonder Trg people is kaya kaya haha..

Then the Mesra Mall. Heard about it a lot, just never been there. It’was surprisingly quite a small mall (as compared to m.y imagination hahaha)

Then Kijal there I met Subbha and from there onward faiz drive his car in front of us and, honestly
-one thing is I didn’t read much of the SIGNBOARD anymore hihihi.
-second is, from there onward I did drive s.l.o.w.e.r hahahah. (jgn marah ye encik police)
-third is, so ME I cannot sit long and not talking, and talking makes me tell something I don’t want to tell and baha I surrender to him, he’s very good korek2 rahsia orang 5stars utk awk hihihi..

Around 5pm+ we were there. My TBC kisses the welcoming land long before me. Take some roticanai and some drinks, pray and then checked in. Thanks to them, everything settled before sunset. Diorang went off near maghrib time. and me, just lazed and feel bit melancholic (not a bit, actually so so) till dozed off at 12.
Silelah jgn sedih2 kt bumi kuantan neh

Ready for the course early in the morning.
Breakfast is good I just amik nasik lemak lots of selections but I really cannot handle it pagi2. then off to HTAA for the course. Enjoyed short lectures and hand’s on breakout sessions. Packed till finished at nearly 5pm.
Then back to hotel, get some shower and off again. Pusing2 and there’s again- my passion of nature brings me at the end to have long walk over the esplanade and river bank watching the water until magrib prayer time..
Then spent the whole magrib-isya time at the SAS mosque
Back to hotel after prayer and lazed off.
Read subbha’s wall
Ready for CM yeay!


This time I didn’t take breakfast at the hotel really cannot handle it too early in the morning. Cont with course, -short lectures and more hand’s on skills I loved it.

So damn true..
Steve Job died and his millions dollars cannot bring him back to live.
Course ended at 2+pm and I performed prayer then OFF at 3.

Ila waqtin thaniah.. fursotin thaniah.I’ll be there again, insya Allah.
I’m home at 6.20pm at 9385km

Pseudo east coast road trip resolutions
1. bak sini TBC2802 mai kne gi service hohoho.. it’s 9385 already
2. camne nk betul2 east coast road trip neh? Huhu.. kire yang ini sudah ok ke xaci lagi neh?.i think traveling pakai kete sdirik xaci ar huhu..xsame tu.
3. there on the way I see the bukit bauk @ dungun so magnetic nasib I xbrenti ja hehe..
4. there on the way I see the pulau kapas (betui ka?) di bawah kemendungan langit kelulut
5. nk g jln2 ag huhuhu..
6. sila bersemangat ye (credit to subbha)

Credits of this journey goes to:
Those who DID put my name to attend the course (ini thanks dalam bracket ya hahaha)
Subbha/Faiz for making things much easier by their presence

November 2011

Friday, October 28, 2011

october's ramble

it's end of october already

i'm so this and that
i am excited yet much more scared
i am happy this housemanship will be (insya Allah)- over yet i know i will miss it
i am glad this will be over yet i don't know what lay ahead

what is that?
i'm so afraid to face new things hahaha
let it be
let it be and see how it goes
i pray hardly for good things

for now,
i'm newly a fully registered medical practicioner.
i'm not anymore in a probationary period for driving -yeay! i got my BIG driving license already

and my social relationship is wrecking -again. huhu
befriending is as tough as i thought.
people just expects more.
at the beginning of it, i swear i heard him said let just be friend.
i made it clear from the beginning that I AM SINGLE BUT NOT AVAILABLE
and he said fine let just be friend
am i to damned straight like the sudip? to say yes?
nx time those sentence will be the hardest to believe
because by time, they'll expect more and more
i'm over it

yesterday he called and i answered. we talked for a while, and i was disspointed about the hopes and expectations and wants which i think it wasn't appropriate. what more that that is that i've trusted him for his- let just be friend- thing and now he forget it wholly.that was as evidence of he got dissappointed and hung up the phone.
i didn't call back
i'm over it
i'm over it. i'm over other people 's wants.
i'm a selfish lady with my own wants to fulfill. pull stop.

and the still maybe's
staying' or moving? oooh i'm so restless. i've just walked in my PT's office and she said DONNO YET. patience please! i cannot geared down this adrenaline rush- it keeps going. gimme some alprazolam maybe that will help chasing this restlessness away for some time hahaha

thanks Allah, i'm on duty TONIGHT.
just let me dwell in my works and work and work- that won't hurt.

Monday, October 3, 2011

it's all about trees

The true meaning of life is to plant trees, under whose shade you do not expect to sit.
~Nelson Henderson~

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

it's september, already
another one month and it'l be 2yrs of works
and another 2months (hopefully) i'm out of this crazy housemanship duties..

urm.. Insight- i've been driving > 6693km so far, (dat was last time i filled the tank)it's TBC 2802, pearl white in color. 've nowhere yet except around kuala terengganu and few trips home to krai. 3more months to go- i wish the e.a.s.t.c.o.a.s.t trip will be a real thing, if not within this year, be it next year also will be just fine
6months already but yet, so much things i've got to do with my beloved baby- the only this i've done it just got it tinted and not more than that. it'll need some further touch-up, service and others that i don't know how and when and where and even what. got zero knowledge regarding motors , hoho..

2. my home; erm...currently back to my-student time- just like kak yati said it to me.. haha.. i'm livin' solo again, unintentionally -okay. my housemate moved out last ramadhan to stay together with her sister and i havent yet searching for mew housemate (i will not, actually) or looking for new home (probably)

3. my saving ? haha. this part is very dissappointing - i dunno if i even able to save a cent hahaha- dont ask me!

4. my frends-
safiyah- 24th sept jus give birth to a 2.7kg baby boy (haven't say congrates yet huuhu)
fadhilah married since long time and now-and her baby girl
dayah is now married
aliaa ? probably due (dunno when heheh)
zulek- havent heard from her yet
kak yati still solo
me and my solo-ness :)

5. my next want to be place is this weird place in terengganu called bukit bauk, it's somewhere in dungun.(i havent been anywhere- really) not even the famous masjid terapung whish is not more than 2minutes away form my home hahah- sooooo bad!
it's probably a good place to stretch my long -time no-use mucles . nearly one hour to the top, sound like a good place for retreat. i'm looking for companion, though. it's not a good idea going hiking alone - scary me lool.

6. see you next entry okey..

Thursday, March 24, 2011

it's a whole new day

once again,
i saw the C'EST LA VIE thing in my notebook, that suddenly reminds me back about this blog hehehe.. kesian sungguh blog ku yang terabai ini huhu

it's march 2011 already
mai berfikir jap

the facts that i
1-work for 1yr 5month already

loooo.. so cepat mase berlalu
can't make the time stop though

2 what's new?
nothing much.
hermmmmmm.. i'm 27, las tyr i was 26 lol
i'm still single yahaha..; no change
haven't seen my speech theraphist yet
i moved out from the quarters already
i drive my kancil everyday to work for almost 1month now
i got i saman already hahaha
i got myself covered with insurance
i guess no big changes
but others around me, they do
my sis noni, is pregnant again, 2nd baby
my sis lah, is gettign divorced
my brother di, is busy with his 2nd baby boy and new cheryl and new home

3 this 2011 new year resolution
-east coast trip : after i dapat my INISIGHT, insyaAllah nak bederat abis2:)
-saving >rm6000 : whoaaa..which means rm500/mo, so difficult but yet i'l try.,. duwet already cikup2 maaa. nasib ade claim oncall ja neh
-MRCP part 1 : haven't planed yet . actually was induced by seeing my collegue studying for MRCP, plus the feeling of studying have been long gone hahhaaha..rindu that feeling..skang aku x stady pom haha..
-better realtionship with my parent: actually dunno how much better things will be, but then, since i/ve home in past 1y and half, things have been NOT so good lah.perhaps better means a BIT better(am i rambling?) no need to understand, though.

so far, no resolution regarding this blog hehehe.
i'll keep this updated, once in a while.


it's a whole new day!